December 11, 2018
I’m a planner. I love structure & having a routine. I’ve been planning out my life probably since the day I was born. I remember being really little and planning my birthday an entire year in advance right after the other one ended. Maybe that has to do with my obsession with holidays and parties, but I also think it has a lot to do with my personality and that I just love having things planned out perfectly. I like to know what to expect and I don’t like being in the dark, not knowing what’s coming next. It’s probably very normal to feel that way I’m sure.
But, sometimes it can be hard for me to live in the moment and enjoy where I’m at if I’m constantly planning out my future. Anyone else with me on this?? I’m going to be honest here, if something doesn’t go as planned, I don’t tend to take it very well. I’m getting better & am always working on this, but it’s still a struggle for me! Something I’ve learned (this past year especially) is that life doesn’t usually go the way you planned. It just doesn’t.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to be Negative Nelly over here and I don’t mean this in a bad way at all! Let me explain… People have always told me this my entire life, “Life doesn’t go as planned.” or “Well, that’s never going to happen because nothing in life goes the way you want it to.” Yikes. Dream crushers 😉
I’m naturally a competitive person hahah so my first reaction to that was always, “Well, I’ll show you!” but now I understand what everyone was trying to tell me, although I think I’ve gained my own perspective on the matter. Life doesn’t go as you perfectly planned it, that is true! But! That doesn’t mean it’s bad! If you had asked my twelve year old self what my life plan was I would’ve told you I was going to be the next Taylor Swift. Or, if you asked my sixteen year old self what my life plan was I would’ve told you I was going to go to hair school, marry the boy I was dating, cut hair in my basement salon & live happily ever after. Ha!
Well, I’m here to tell you that none of those things happened, but does that mean that I’m unhappy with what I decided to do and where I’m at?? Of course not! I never became the next Taylor Swift (lol), never went to hair school & never married the boy I dated in high school. But I’ve done things I never thought I would do! I never in a million years thought I’d go to school for Digital Media Design. Never! Or that I’d be making videos online for a living?!?!! There’s a lot more to the list but I’ll save your time and just tell you that I didn’t have an image in my mind even close to the one that I’m living but I love it!
Now, I’m not trying to tell you that you shouldn’t have any goals or anything you want to do in life because I’m allllll for goals! I’m a planner remember?? So set your goals and achieve them! All I’m trying to say is it’s okay to change your mind and not do what you expected yourself to do or what other people expect you to do. Do what is right for you. If you want to go to college, go to college. If you don’t want to, then don’t! There is NOT one specific path that everyone has to follow and that is so amazing!
Still, sometimes things just don’t work out and you end up somewhere you never thought you’d be. So, what do you do when life doesn’t seem to be going the way you planned? This is so hard. Usually we don’t know why something is happening until after the fact when we can see all the pieces fall into place. Adjusting my plan and being flexible is something I’ve been learning and am still learning how to do! The most important thing I think I’ve taught myself to do is not lose hope.
When something doesn’t work out it can be easy to just break down & want to give up, but please don’t! If there’s one thing you take away from this, let it be that when everything seems to be going wrong & nothing is working out the way you thought it would, there is always something better in store for you. I have been shown countless times when I feel like everything is falling apart that it’s because there’s something more for me.
YES! YES! YES! I remember I had this quote hanging on my bedroom wall when I was twelve hahaa and I still, to this day, always think of it! I texted a friend the other day telling her about something that had happened and I jokingly said, “Why is the universe so against me?!” She then replied, “The universe isn’t against you, it’s just preparing for the alignment!” Hahah I loved that and felt like I should share it 🙂 But it’s really so so true! When something doesn’t work out it’s probably because there’s something else that will turn out better for you!
I don’t have a method for dealing with life when it doesn’t go as planned. There’s really nothing we can do to prevent it either. The only thing I know how to do is keep my faith and trust in God. In doing this I am reminded that HIS plan is the ultimate plan and so much bigger & better than my own. He has shown me everyday that He is mindful of me and that He will place me in the right places at the right times for what I am meant to do & the same goes for you!
So many things that happen in this life are unexpected and not what we planned. But life is still beautiful if not more beautiful than it would have been before! Isn’t it wonderful to think that you have so much good coming for you?? Let’s turn away from our perfect plans and trust God in His plan that He has designed specifically for each one of us. How exciting it is to just live & trust & let go.